Cilkysmooth

My puppy, Felix, in Texas. I miss him so much so thought id put up a picture of him. :)

Have a great weekend everyone! :) 

So i once told myself that to have a crush on a celebrity, would be the most ridiculous thing ever, since youd probably never meet this celebrity and chances were not really in your favor of that celebrity also having a crush on you. So yea ive said a lot of celebrity men ar e gorgeous, no doubt. However ive never let myself dream about a celebrity man like hed actually be mine one day, until now. My mom used to talk about George Clooney, like she would be his next wife. I always laughed at her and told her to dream on, because what was the chance of him coming to knock on her door one day and them fall in love? Slim to nothing if you ask me. Then this whole twilight buzz came around, and i looked at everyone like they were crazy for being in love with a fictional character from a book about vampires. Stuff like that just has never ever grabbed my attention, but one day i was in a bookstore and i needed a book to read and i looked at a copy of Twilight, and i decided to buy it just to see what all the fuss was about, and who would have guessed, i read it in less than two days. so much for having a book to read after i go to bed at night. The book wasnt at all what i had thought it to be and i pictured myself being with the carachters at all times, and picked up the second book of the series right away. Now im on the third and i can hardly put this book down either. I then decided to watch the movie to compare it to the book, which the book ended up winning that comparison by far, and i must say my heart dropped for the actor playing Edward Cullen, Robert Pattinson. He is just absolutely drop dead gorgeous. So all that i had ever told myself about dreaming of celebrities and having a celebrity crush was just washed down the drain the second i saw him in the movie. I have now watched the movie about a hundred million times, and my heart beats just as fast and i have to concentrate on breathing, sounds pathetic i know, everytime i see him. However i still know that the chance of him actually knocking on my door one day, is slim to nothing. And if he ever did id probably die from a heart attach on the spot, so it wouldnt be that amazing. :P 

                           

Now im going to snuggle up in some blankets, eat my brownies, and watch He´s Just Not That Into You. :)

Have a great day everyone.

So after her disturbing inbox towards me, i talked to her telling her she crossed the line accusing me of such things, when the fact is that i am across the world from where both she and him live. We then get to a level where we talk, and im helping her get through her sorrow and such things. Then, once i thought it was going to be okay she tells me that i could prove to her im a good friend, this after talking to her about all her problems and knowing her for 9 years, even though i didnt do anything. She tells me to delete him as a friend on face and stop talking to him completely until he talks to her, and i mean facebook again? Life is so much more than following what people do and who they are with by facebook. Come on. So i tell her i wont do that because that wont ease her problems with him and not with me, and it would just make it worse. So there yet again, i end up in a middle position. Where i realized that the friendship i have with him will always mean more to me than hers, and will always be more real. However it never crossed my mind to choose, i just realized which would be a better friend to me for the rest of my life, and clearly that would be him. Dont get me wrong i absolutely love listening to peoples problems and coming with as many suggestions and opinions as i possibly can to help that person. Its something i feel i have always been good at, but then when you feel like you have to choose between two people who means so much to you, it sometimes just becomes too much. I never pick sides, i let people come to me to get my opinons, but i wont be there to talk bad about my other friend, or to choose one friend over the other. Friendship means more to me than that and i would never picture putting someone else in that position, where they would have to choose. It is just morally wrong. So i hope you guys never have to be in that position, but we all know we land there more often than we would like to, and if it comes up to you having to choose, dont do it. Simple as that. Tell them then to deal with you being friends with both of them, or to make up their problems themselves. 

So when it all comes down to it, if someone is ever going to make you choose between them and someone else, whether you barely know the other person or have known them all of your life. Think twice before choosing, because most likely the person making you choose was never as good of a friend as you thought. Think carefully next time :)

                          

Anyhow, thursday i took the buss from Bergen to Høyanger to Rakels, and when i got there we went out to eat, and i ate so much nachos i thought i wouldnt have to eat for weeks, but that all changed today. Then we went home and got ready and had a fun night out. :) Then friday, we woke up at like 3 pm, and realized the bus we were planning on taking to Balestrand, where i lived before and her parents live, was leaving at like 4 and quickly decided to leave with the 530 bus instead. When we woke up i realized it was kind of cramped in the bed and was startled for a second to see a third person beside Rakel, and turned out while i was far away in my dreams, her boyfriend had come from Bergen too. We sat and talked for a while and watched an episode of the flight of the concords, i think thats the name of the show? Then i as usual was taking my time not in a hurry to do really anything so i got in the shower at 5 and Rakel knocked at the door when i got out and told me the bus left in 15 minutes, so i rushed on my clothes, threw my hair on top of my head, got my bags, and we rand out the door. We made the bus about a minute before it left so we got lucky this time. :) When we got here we went to our friend Bergittes house, and her parents made us some taco, which i of course stuffed my face with probably putting on 10 pounds in 30 minutes but whatever, and we watched tv and just talked the night away. 

Now im in bed wide awake, and pretty much attatched to facebook. Its weird how facebook is so addicting, like theres not much to do when you have looked at every picture and person atleast 5 times, but still i manage to be able to be looged on to facebook for hours, wasting the time that i could have spent doing productive things, away. So i could basically say that i am totally addicted to facebook, not really sure if it is a good thing, but im leaning towards the fact that its not because so many hours of my days are given to facebook it should be illegal. Does anyone else have that problem?

Tomorrow im super excited to go play in the snow, something ive wanted to do since it got here. I do tend to turn into a little 5 year old again when the snow appears, but i consider that a quite healthy situation. It is good to be able to bring out your inner child and not get weird looks at times. :)

So there i have pretty much caught yall up on everything, so now im going to try to get some sleep, so i wont sleep away the day tomorrow. :) 

Take care yall :)

However, some of you probably wonder why in the world i moved from texas back to norway. Because most of the people i talk too about it think im crazy to move back to norway from the us, by choice. Well it wasn't like i didn't like texas, i just simply liked norway better. I grew up here, but then i also grew up in texas. Most of my life was in texas at the time of my move, in fact my whole life was there, but i did it anyways. I am amazed myself sometimes when i realize what i dropped to come here, i had so many good friends that i left, i had my horses that i spent everyday with, and my family. Friends weren't so hard since most of them graduated with me and were all pretty much moving in all different directions, spreading across the us to go to college. I still get to talk to them a lot though, thank god for facebook in that situation. :) However leaving my horses was probably the worst thing, since my life pretty much revolved around the horses and competing, coming here and not riding at all was kind of strange at first, but now its not so bad. I still miss riding of course and i miss my horse to death but its not so bad being without it. Of course my family was not easy to just get up and leave, but i have the rest of my extended family here. I live with my grandpa so its not that bad, since i kinda have the family home feeling here, i dont think about home that much.

So my decision has been for the best to me i think, because i absolutely love it here. I get to see the people i grew up with much more often and my new friends from school now are amazing. I love the climate here and the fact that its not a 100 degrees plus 95% humidity outside everyday, that part sucks about texas. I mean the place and people in general are what makes me feel right at home and that here is the place that is much more me, i guess. That sounds kind of weird but its true, i feel like i fit in better here. People are so care free and open to everyone, not like in the us where the typical high school attitude never goeas away, there is always someone hating on someone and making a huge fuss about it. To me thats just a big waste of time, if you dont get along with a person dont waste your time dwelling up on it, or trying to make that persons life horrible or something. Thats simply idiotic, and childish. Move on and spend your time on the people you love and care about. 

So i realize i answered a relatively simple question with alot of side rambeling to it, but thats who i am. I usually over explain stuff. :) 

So heres to the new part of my life, a new world, and maybe a new me. I still have texas, and i always will. I am lucky though to have two completely different worlds, that is something not many people get to have, and i consider myself very lucky. 

Take care yall :)

So i am totally new to this, i love reading blogs, id have to admit i do it everyday, and i love reading what people have to say, i have so much respect for everyone who does this. My good friend, Arin actually got me to make one today, we have both become obsessed with reading these things, and she was brave enough to make one and it kind of sucked me into taking the next step from reading to writing. I dont know if i will have much interesting to say, but i tend to live an interesting life, or at least i think so, and hopefully you will enjoy reading about it as much as i will enjoy writing about it. 

So now i am the official newbie to blogging and it kind of gives me butterflies in my stomach, but in a good way. Im super excited and i hope you all enjoy it! 

I guess i can officially start off with my day today then. :) I went to school, where i tend to sit for 1 and a half hours and think about everything BUT what the teacher is actually talking about, just like i do every Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. After school i decided to walk from school to a cafe i was meeting some friends at instead of taking the bus, which made me feel good about myself. Now it made me feel proud of myself because i am not the one to walk anywhere, i always hop on the bus wherever i can. However the weather was way too nice today to sit on a bus, i mean the bright white snow on the ground and the clear blue skies is a sight you just have to embrace and take in. Then this afternoon i met some classmates and we ate dinner at Peppes Pizza, and went ot the theatre to watch Hedda Gabler for school, it was either go and watch it or read the book, which was kind of interesting but good and funny. So my day wasnt all that exciting i realize that, but cut me some slack its my first post. :P i PROMISE this will become the blog you will have abstinence's from if you havent read it everyday! :D I at least hope so :)

Now its off too bed where im going to snuggle up in my covers and read the second Twilight book, which i am now addicted to. :) Take care.